Oh, Shiny! On project abandonment

Sometimes I do this thing.

Remember how I said I was an expert at walking away from bad situations? And how being easily distracted makes me emotionally resilient?

How about that video where I listed off all the ideas for videos and blog posts I’d come up with in the two hours since I woke up?

My brain moves quickly.

I move quickly.

I have this strong ability to multitask and take on an entire world of projects with ease. I can juggle a task list – a hodgepodge of creative endeavors, full-time jobs, part-time jobs, and side hustles that help pay the bills – all while maintaining a full social life (and even dating sometimes).

I have a lot going on.

Which means sometimes things end up falling off the face of the planet for a while.

As you know, I haven’t posted many videos lately. Mainly that’s been because I’ve been crazy-busy at work, in a rough emotional space for a number of reasons, planning my upcoming move to El Paso, and also getting the ball rolling on some content for a new fitness blog I’m starting with my best friend (launch date is mid-late July, by the way, so subscribe to it if you want to be notified when it’s official).

So my channel has suffered and my blog has suffered. It’s not for lack of inspiration – I’ve got plenty of ideas. It’s not for lack of drive – I definitely want all of this to take off (and I’ve got some ideas for how I can hopefully push that forward a bit soon enough). It’s not even necessarily about a lack of time, since I’ve always been able to short myself on certain areas (sleep. I don’t sleep) to make up for an over-extended schedule.

It’s focus. I’ve lacked focus.

Because as soon as I announced my move, everybody in Albuquerque suddenly needed me for something. As soon as I put in my notice at work, I realized I need to find an income once I relocate (Which actually may be resolved!). As soon as I decided to start a fitness blog, I suddenly needed to have an entire month’s worth of content planned (and prepared as much as possible), including a full social media editorial calendar, so that we can hit the ground running.

But then I’ve also got a visit from my mom. And I have boys who want to Netflix and chill or whatever. And I have friends who want to spend every moment with me between now and when I move. And my mom wants me to take a week off and go to Texas to see my entire family.

I’m being pulled in a lot of different directions and I’ve forgotten how to say no. It’s one thing when I’m keeping my own brain in line, but it’s entirely different when it’s friends and family trying to drag me away from what I’m supposed to be doing. It’s another thing when the siren song of the bar calls out and I decide that I can’t spend a Saturday night at home tapping on a keyboard when I’ll only look this good for another couple years maximum (see: the fact that I don’t sleep).

So I haven’t abandoned you. I haven’t stopped thinking about you. I haven’t stopped creating and dreaming up big projects and small creative projects. I’m still doodling in my notebook and working on my photography and planning an entire series of “let’s talk about what it means to be creative,” and even more content about building up business on a very small audience (because small creators are severely underserved right now).

I just have to focus. And that may not happen for a bit longer than I’d like it to. I may be posting sparsely for the next couple weeks while things fall into place. I’m going to do my best to keep all of you updated with what’s going on and putting out content when I find a spare minute (like the 45 minutes I have to write this in between hanging out with my mom and recording a 6-hour drag marathon fundraiser for Orlando).

But now more than ever it’s incredibly important that you follow me on Twitter and Facebook so you can stay updated on what’s going on and what I’m working on.

In the meantime, thank you for continuing to be the amazing, supportive, beautiful people that you are and for sharing my content and catching up on all the old stuff you missed because my output is insanely high (side note: it’ll definitely be scaled back after my return!). I appreciate it more than I could ever explain with words. It means more to me than you will ever know.

I love you all.

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