It’s 2:02 AM and I’m sitting cross-legged on my bed. The blue light of my laptop is illuminating my face in my now-dark room (I only recently turned off my lamp in the hopes that I’ll actually fall asleep soon). My phone is buzzing, almost rhythmically, as Twitter notifications roll in.
DarkLadyChaos85 and 8 others followed you
Egerli Adamson and 3 others liked your Tweet
All I want now is a re-tweet.
I just finished reading a stunningly transparent piece for Fusion by Gaby Dunn, one of my favorite content creators. In it, she talks about wealth disparity in the YouTube community and the glaring reality of successful YouTubers (and other bloggers) working minimum wage jobs.
It’s omnipresent at the moment. I had seen the same article referenced on YTTalk, a forum for YouTubers, and even contributed to the discussion on it. But I’d failed to actually read it until a few days later. Sometimes, you refuse to take recommendations for as long as you can.
I followed about 20 people on Instagram, hoping at least a couple would follow me back so I could finally hit 100. Note here that the next, particularly lofty goal is 100 Likes on my Facebook page. I’ll get there. Eventually. Surely. Probably.
I check my email to see if I’ve received any more from a woman I just met. Over the last week, I have started to help out with her budding journey into blogging.
This is, of course, after spending my entire weekend in frenzy mode. I recorded as many videos as I possibly could so that my channel wouldn’t suffer during my upcoming 10-day-straight work-week. You absolutely have to plan ahead when you’re pressed for time. I also went on a social media blitz.
And none of this is atypical.
The Day-to-Day Life of a Beginner Blogger
It’s 2:13 AM, now, but that’s an early bedtime, because I am working to build a successful career as a blogger on top of my full-time job.
Blogging is about connections, so I tweet, favorite, and retweet. I follow and follow back. Every day, I comment on YouTube videos. I either respond to the video itself or to comments others left. And I recognize the importance of social proof, so I try to build some kind of following on Instagram and Facebook.
I stay up late reading about how to create press/media kits for advertisers once my website reaches a certain level of success and try to find a clever way to work in that you should subscribe to my blog and follow me on Twitter.
Because when you’re a blogger, you have a goal. But your goal isn’t the long-game. It’s your next milestone. That’s what keeps you going.
My goal for this weekend was to hit 100 subscribers on YouTube. I accomplished that. My next goal is to get 200 followers on Twitter. That seems to be coming easily. Next up is Instagram, Facebook, and, of course, subscribers on this blog.
These aren’t huge goals. They’re small numbers. But they are insanely difficult to achieve – and the only thing I think about half the time.
Blogging Consumes Every Inch of Mental Space
Because I’m either thinking about growing my following, the next piece of content I’m going to produce, or how I’m going to make enough money from this to support myself without having to work a full-time job as well.
Because it’s 2:26 AM, and I would like to be sleeping soundly, rather than having a minor panic attack over how far behind I am, even after yet another 18-hour work-day (8 hours at my job, 10 hours online).
Because I am a blogger. I am hooked on social media, writing, telling stories, sharing and creating content, and meeting new people all over the world. We have the opportunity to get paid to make friends, and I’d like for that to pay all the bills one day, but for now, I’m enjoying the ride. I’m enjoying the struggle.
Let me know what being a blogger means to you in the comments down below. Make sure you include a link to your blog so I can check it out, too. If you’ve reached a certain level of success, how do you think your perspective has changed? Are you still obsessed with it like I am? Did you become even more obsessed than I am?